Does seriously no one even remotely understand me!? Am I that good at hiding? Am i just that strong??
I let someone in and trust them more then anyone and feel like I am the one being needy for wanting them so badly and I do everything in my power to show them how much they mean! I come at 3am when they feel down, i always want to be around them, i try and at least TRY to admit when I'm wrong, i apologize when i accidentally hurt them (with is also not common) I let them know my secrets, I listen to theirs, they are all i want when i am down and yet they never seem to understand what i do. Every single time they have the audacity to tell me that they care more and that they put so much more in and that i don't even care about them.
I AM GIVING YOU ALL THAT I FUCKING CAN!
They are putting a lot in to i don't deni it! but They think all because i don't cry every night, I don't fucking shatter to pieces every time they are rude, And i don't push every other person out of my life except them that "i don't give a shit"
I played that game already! I pushed all others out and i lost my mind about everything else and all reason and just paid attention to them and what happened to me? the same thing.. now i know how broken i am and weather i like it or not i physically can't lose my common sense like all of you! I am completely aware of how broken i am and before i can even think about focusing everything on you i need to help myself, because if i don't we will both break and everything will be lost within 3months.
I am giving you all I know how and if thats not good enough.. don't ever expect me to be.
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